Change in Climate

September is almost over. We all know this means that we are coming close to the very long and brutal cold that Utah receives. It's one of the things I dislike about Utah. I'm not very good at dealing with cold cause i'm too skinny. I'm not really looking forward to it.

Winter has always been the darkest part of the year for me. Bad things in my past usually have occured in the winter. It might just be that the cold has made it that much worse but I always fear the cold. This year has been very good to me so far. I'm just hoping that it won't turn around too hard with the cold. This is my last year in highschool and I need to make it count.

Connect

Today was one of the performance for the performing arts fundraiser. It was an amazing night. I finally have connected with the class. Musical Productions got to perform the closing number. It was a great moment to perform with the entire class. I didn't think the class would ever connect. I was really worried that it wouldn't happen. The class felt like a competition the entire time. Finally it feels like a family.

This morning didn't go so well for me. I'm in a really good mood now but I felt like garbage this morning. Tonight was absolutely fantastic though. I love when a day flips like that.

Don't judge me.

My seminary class is....interesting. I usually love seminary but this class feels funny. There is a small group kids who are too cool to be there. Well, since I love seminary so much, naturally, this group thinks i'm super annoying. Then my seminary teacher thought it would be a good idea to make me president of the class..... So far, this is not working out so well. Then there are a few kids who I really enjoy hearing from. I'm not sure what to expect from the class yet but hopefully everything works out.

On another note, I get to perform at a retirement home tommorow night. I'm really excited but at the same time i'm really nervous. Old people are not afraid to tell you that you suck. So this might be an interesting experience. I'm just going to have to rock it. I have a couple songs i'm prepared to play. I'll just play the one i'm in the mood to play when I get there. It should be fun.

Last, this year has been fantastic. I'm always happy and smiling. I can't wait for the future because if things keep going the way they are, this is going to be a great year. I'm finally spending time with the great people in my life and I am loving it.

Smile

This weekend was hard...
Things don't always go the way you think they will. That's life though. Things are meant to be hard. This weekend, I was hit by a couple of curveballs. They hit hard. It was definitely one of those moments that knocks you off your feet.
I think the reason it Hurt so bad is because I was so prepared to make this weekend amazing for Maddy but something unexpected happened. Instead of making this weekend great for her, she made it great for me. She pulled me off the ground and onto my feet. I had a hard weekend but she was there helping me the whole time.

Now, the weekend is over. I had the chance to make up for the weekend today. I'm so happy right now. I can't describe how I feel. I went on a calming walk, got some great advice from a very talkative old man, and spent the day with the best person ever.....and now all that I can do is smile.

School (so far...)

Today is a good day. I am in a really good mood.....wanna know why?

So...I'll start off with the beginning of the year. School has started off so well........sorta. I think I have been stressing out since it started. I'm taking AP classes again. They scare me but i'm trying again. The first day of Musical Productions, gave us our first assignment.....auditions. I don't think I have breathed normally until we finished them....today. I'm am super happy about the cast. I get to play the Inkeeper.

I can't wait to start the play. It will be a great experience with my best friends in the world. I love the class and everyone in it.

Long Time

It has been a long time since I have posted anything on here. I think the only reason I post on here is to talk to myself.....I'm a bit insane. It's probably fine.

School starts this next monday. I don't know if i'm excited or not. It's a strange feeling. Usually, I can't wait to get back to school because I feel like I have been missing my friends for such a long time. This year I must have spent a lot of time with friends because I feel like I have kept in touch really well. Either way, I don't really get to choose if I am going back or not. I will be there with everyone else.

Friendships are beginning to disappear. I always have a small group of friends that have and will be my friends forever. However, drama is a very sly little thing that seems to slither into everything. I wish we could all just get along.

I'm excited but scared for the future. Whatever happens will happen for a reason. I hope the future will remain like the past...


bright and fun......

The crazy of the week.

Recently, I have had trouble getting up on time to go to school. Monday was one of those days. It was about 5 minutes before the tardy bell was going to ring. I was at the intersection right before turning into the school parking lot. There was a car directly in front of me and a car to the right of me. They were both stopped at the stop sign. I would not have thought much of it if they hadn't have been waiting there for so long. When I pulled up to the intersection, it seemed like they were just sitting there. Because they both got there before I did, I was waiting for them to go. However, they did not go. They just sat there. I was pretty stressed out because of how late I was so I began to pull forward. I didn't pull forward very far before both cars began to accelerate.
It was one of those moments where everything seemed to be moving in slow motion. The car that was on the left (red car) was now directly in front of me. The car that was across from me (white car) slammed into the red car. The impact ripped the backside of the red car off. I'm not just saying the bumper. The entire back side of the car was ripped off. After that, it seemed like everything sped up again. The white car spun out of the intersection, nearly hitting me. His eyes met mine while he was spinning out of control. The look on his face was priceless. He looked like nothing was going on. He gave me a look that was kinda like "yeah, I just hit that car.....oops".
When it was all done, both drivers looked at each other for about ten awkward seconds. Sadly, I didn't stay to see anymore......I was late to school.
True Story......