Climbing

You know that really cliche line, "Life is a Journey". A lot of the time it feels like rock climbing. When you climb, someone always belays you. They hold you up so you don't fall. When I go rock climbing with my ward, sometimes, we get too tired and feel like we can't go any farther. Then whoever is on belay usually pulls the rope tight so that you can rest. They have your back. Right now, I feel like I have a lot of people pulling my rope tight or giving me support. My brother has been gone a lot but he really supports me. There are a lot of people that don't know that they help me. They do little and simple things to help me keep a smile on. Maddy always keeps me smiling. It's easy to smile when she is always so happy. And then, there is my savior, Jesus Christ. I'm feeling really religious right now....but there is nobody who is more supportive than Christ. I know that....and I absolutely love him for it.

Am I ready?

I went to a beautiful wedding reception yesterday. It was really nice.

While I was there I started thinking about my own future. I want to get married in the temple. I have always wanted to. Even when I was in primary, I remember wanting it for myself. I'm kinda young to be thinking about getting married....but I also remember being too young to be worrying about driving. Those years came very quickly. Anyway, this school year is coming to a close.

Half of me is dying to get out of high school. I want to live on my own. I want to start working on my missionary papers. I want to serve a mission.

The other half is a little worried. As I look back at my last three years, I have done many great things...but I still make stupid mistakes. I still drop below my goals. I thought that by the time I graduated from high school I would have grown up so much. I feel like I have grown up a lot...but at the same time I still feel like the little boy who makes mistakes and disappoints his parents and peers. I had really awesome older brothers who were great examples to me. I wish I could be more like them sometimes. It always seems like they are at the top. Being the best of the best. I know that they aren't but I am always so impressed by them. It's a little hard following them. They are amazing men...and I'm ....less amazing I guess is the best way to put it.

I hope that I can get to a point in my life where I never have to disappoint anyone... I probably will never reach that point in my life. I don't think anyone eccentric does. But I hate disappointing people. If I were to pick my biggest fear, it would probably be disappointing people.

That's why I sometimes ask myself if I'm ready to graduate. I didn't realize how hard it is to leave home. It worries me a little....but I have a plan ahead of me. I know that my life is riding down the path it's supposed to. I just need to trust that He's up there with the plan and that he knows what he's doing. I might not always like where I'm going, but I know that things will work out the way they are supposed to.

Look for the Light

I really like this one singer....his name is Benton Paul. He's not super popular, but I think he's great. He has a song called "Look for the Light". I once saw him perform this song at a concert that I went to with my brother. Here is a video of the concert. If you look on the far right at the very beginning of the video (about 2 seconds in), you can see my brother in a dark blue shirt and me in a white striped shirt.



This is one of my favorite songs by Benton....One of my favorites period. I don't listen to it often but I always seem to remember it when i'm having a hard time. I am very blessed. It's always easy to look for things about me or my life that I don't like. When I do that, I get super depressed or angry. I hate it. I like to think of myself as a pretty happy person. That's why I always do my best to "Look for the Light".

This video doesn't have the best quality....it's the wind....but I posted it because I like seeing my brother and I. I got to talk to him on mothers day. I miss him and am very excited for him to come home.