Gasping for air

Asthma is back....again. At least I think it's asthma. My chest aches and it makes it hard to breathe. I hooked myself up to some medicine for my lungs so I could sleep last night....but I'm kinda done with all this breathing stuff. My mom had asthma. Haha, quick story (don't laugh), but when I was first diagnosed, I was super sad and my mom came and told me she had it at one point in her life. She said that it went away when she was about sixteen. I thought that asthma was just going to go away when I turned sixteen....it happened to my mom. Why not me?

It actually did go away...for a really long time. In fact, it was gone for most of my high school career. It decided to jump back into my life about a year ago. I just hope it is asthma.....cuz if it is something else....I don't know what it is. So, in the last couple days, I've been literally telling myself "Breathe in......breathe out".....Haha, just like the dumb blonde joke.

Fortunately, I've been in a really good mood. Every once in a while I get grumpy and get rude....and I apologize to anyone that has to deal with me....but most of the time, i'm in a pretty good mood. There's a quote in the movie Hitch. It says something along the lines of "Life isn't about the number of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away"......Something like that. 

I've had some great experience while I've been away from home. Lots of surprises...some good....some bad, but I've also had a lot of smiles and laughs. I'm just a very happy person. I've been very close to my church recently. Maybe that's why i'm so happy. Maybe it's because I have great friends. Maybe it's because i'm getting really busy. It could be all of those things.

So, yes. My lungs kinda suck right now....but my smile won't go away.