Gasping for air

Asthma is back....again. At least I think it's asthma. My chest aches and it makes it hard to breathe. I hooked myself up to some medicine for my lungs so I could sleep last night....but I'm kinda done with all this breathing stuff. My mom had asthma. Haha, quick story (don't laugh), but when I was first diagnosed, I was super sad and my mom came and told me she had it at one point in her life. She said that it went away when she was about sixteen. I thought that asthma was just going to go away when I turned sixteen....it happened to my mom. Why not me?

It actually did go away...for a really long time. In fact, it was gone for most of my high school career. It decided to jump back into my life about a year ago. I just hope it is asthma.....cuz if it is something else....I don't know what it is. So, in the last couple days, I've been literally telling myself "Breathe in......breathe out".....Haha, just like the dumb blonde joke.

Fortunately, I've been in a really good mood. Every once in a while I get grumpy and get rude....and I apologize to anyone that has to deal with me....but most of the time, i'm in a pretty good mood. There's a quote in the movie Hitch. It says something along the lines of "Life isn't about the number of breaths you take, but the moments that take your breath away"......Something like that. 

I've had some great experience while I've been away from home. Lots of surprises...some good....some bad, but I've also had a lot of smiles and laughs. I'm just a very happy person. I've been very close to my church recently. Maybe that's why i'm so happy. Maybe it's because I have great friends. Maybe it's because i'm getting really busy. It could be all of those things.

So, yes. My lungs kinda suck right now....but my smile won't go away.

Hello again.

Well, I'm really bad at this. I don't think i've posted in a very long time. I'm sorry.....except nobody really reads this. Here's a little update of things going through my mind...

So, I'm not going to go through all the things I've been up to. I'm going to say this: College is fun. Learning a lot......of things I didn't think I'd be learning.

I used to think that Provo/Orem was "mormon central" and that everyone out here would be very much like me.....I was so so wrong. Boys and girls, Kaysville really is as "Mormon" as it gets. Maybe I'm ignorant, but I wasn't expecting the community to be like this. I still love everyone up here....it's just a little different than I thought it would be. People don't attack the church in Kaysville.

Here's where my "Churchy" lesson comes in so LISTEN UP. In my old ward, my dad would teach a kinda famous lesson in my ward. He taught it a lot....It's his "famous" lesson (If you don't count how he also always teaches the pornography lesson......which is .....fun). The lesson is, "What you believe" The basic concept is, there will come a time when you will have to ask yourself what do YOU believe. Growing up, I have told myself that I know what I believe....and that is true. I do know what I believe, but that is only half of the lesson.

When my dad gave this lesson, he always told a story (because that's what my dad does best) about a girl he used to know when he was living in Japan during the first couple years of my parents marriage. I don't remember the girls name, but she was the only young-woman in her ward....in fact, the only young-woman in her district. She was also the only LDS member in her family. Nobody woke her up and told her to get ready for church. Nobody reminded her to read her scriptures or say her prayers or pay her tithing. She did all that on her own. The church house was about an hour away if she biked. Her parents had a car, but they were not willing to drive her to church on Sundays. She had to get up around six every Sunday to get ready for church. She loved to swim and was very good at it...but she wasn't on the team because swim meets were always on Sunday and she didn't want to miss church or break the Sabbath. She had a seminary teacher.....kinda. The teacher didn't live anywhere near her. She never met the teacher in person. She had to mail all her homework in. Her teacher would mail her lessons.

So, here comes the famous punch line my dad always said. The first time he told my brothers and I this story, I remember him getting very serious and emotional (which NEVER happens....when he does, it's very important that you listen to what he's saying) and said, "Now boys, I know you have a testimony. I know you believe that the church is true...but would it still be true if you were her?"

Of the many things my parents taught me, I'm so happy they taught me this one...because when you leave home, it's not so easy to be LDS. I don't go to BYU so i'm not in a LDS school. I have never ever had to stand up for the church in a classroom setting...and I've never had to stand up for the church alone. For the first time, it's difficult to say, "Hey, i'm Mormon and what you are saying is not true" because I've always had people backing me up.

I'm so happy that I was raised the way I was...because things aren't as easy as they used to be. Sorry to be all churchy....but that's what's going on down here. Hahaha, what about you?

Hmm this is going well.

I'm finding the same thing out... Again and again. For some reason I forget that I already know it...and then learn it again. I keep finding out what makes me happy and then I forget again. Well, it's time to stop forgetting. I'm not the happiest when I'm trying to make myself happy...I'm happiest when I'm making other people happy.

This week started off so well. Monday, Madeleine and I went shopping all day. We just joked around about how trashy the stores we were shopping at were. Then yesterday, we went on a quick date to DQ and got some ice cream. Throughout the week, I have also just been doing my best to smile lots and make sure everyone around me is too....and it hasn't been so hard. It's so nice. If this week continues the way it has, it could be one of the best weeks ever. :)

Also, quick side note....never ever keep laundry soap in your room......ever. :)

Back in Kaysville

First day of school.

The first day at UVU went very well today. I had found out where all my classes where going to be before school started so I wouldn't be late today. Parking was a little difficult but I found a spot.The only thing that really sucks is textbooks. I have found all of them but i'm trying my best to find a better price because the price of these books is absurd. Didn't make any friends today but......really? I didn't really expect to. It's all good. Eventually things won't be so awkward in the classroom.

Still looking for a job. I've filled out so many applications and dropped my resume off at so many places that it's getting stressful. I'm sure i'll be fine....it's just annoying....it was annoying in high school but in high school you don't buy groceries or have to buy the textbooks you use. It's a scary thought....but i'll find a job.

Sunday was nice. I feel pretty comfortable in the ward now.....and I have a fun nick name. Rolo....or Rolow. I don't know. It's fun though. My roommates are all awesome and i'm excited to room with them for the semester.

I've been able to go see Maddy a few times and it's been nice. She lives closer to me than she did before....kinda weird to think about. Anyway, i'm excited for this college thing. It's going pretty well right now.

New Place

Thought i'd try this....don't know if I like it cause i'm kinda boring ;)

Just a facebook status....

So, a little over a year ago, my friend posted a status about me. It said "For evey like this status gets, Randy Low will kiss a girl". This was done without me knowing. I was not super thrilled about it....especially since it got 118 likes. To make it worse, a facebook event was created. I was supposed to show up at Davis at 11:00 to kiss 118 girls. I was not going to go....

Why would I go? This was not me. I didn't want to kiss 118 girls. I didn't want to have 118 people that have kissed me. That's absurd. The date that was set was August 13th....a date that I was not looking forward to...

Now, when I look back on that day, it was one of the most special of my life. I didn't end up kissing 118 girls.....just one.

One year later, i'm happier than ever. This last year has been brilliant. Lot's of hard times but even more good times. Maddy, is the sweetest person I know and i'm so grateful to have her as my best friend. She really shouldn't put up with me cause i can be so annoying....but i'm so happy she does.

Yesterday, I went back through the year and remembered exactly why i'm so happy...it's because of her.