Thursday, May 24, 2012
Climbing
You know that really cliche line, "Life is a Journey". A lot of the time it feels like rock climbing. When you climb, someone always belays you. They hold you up so you don't fall. When I go rock climbing with my ward, sometimes, we get too tired and feel like we can't go any farther. Then whoever is on belay usually pulls the rope tight so that you can rest. They have your back. Right now, I feel like I have a lot of people pulling my rope tight or giving me support. My brother has been gone a lot but he really supports me. There are a lot of people that don't know that they help me. They do little and simple things to help me keep a smile on. Maddy always keeps me smiling. It's easy to smile when she is always so happy. And then, there is my savior, Jesus Christ. I'm feeling really religious right now....but there is nobody who is more supportive than Christ. I know that....and I absolutely love him for it.
Sunday, May 20, 2012
Am I ready?
I went to a beautiful wedding reception yesterday. It was really nice.
While I was there I started thinking about my own future. I want to get married in the temple. I have always wanted to. Even when I was in primary, I remember wanting it for myself. I'm kinda young to be thinking about getting married....but I also remember being too young to be worrying about driving. Those years came very quickly. Anyway, this school year is coming to a close.
Half of me is dying to get out of high school. I want to live on my own. I want to start working on my missionary papers. I want to serve a mission.
The other half is a little worried. As I look back at my last three years, I have done many great things...but I still make stupid mistakes. I still drop below my goals. I thought that by the time I graduated from high school I would have grown up so much. I feel like I have grown up a lot...but at the same time I still feel like the little boy who makes mistakes and disappoints his parents and peers. I had really awesome older brothers who were great examples to me. I wish I could be more like them sometimes. It always seems like they are at the top. Being the best of the best. I know that they aren't but I am always so impressed by them. It's a little hard following them. They are amazing men...and I'm ....less amazing I guess is the best way to put it.
I hope that I can get to a point in my life where I never have to disappoint anyone... I probably will never reach that point in my life. I don't think anyone eccentric does. But I hate disappointing people. If I were to pick my biggest fear, it would probably be disappointing people.
That's why I sometimes ask myself if I'm ready to graduate. I didn't realize how hard it is to leave home. It worries me a little....but I have a plan ahead of me. I know that my life is riding down the path it's supposed to. I just need to trust that He's up there with the plan and that he knows what he's doing. I might not always like where I'm going, but I know that things will work out the way they are supposed to.
While I was there I started thinking about my own future. I want to get married in the temple. I have always wanted to. Even when I was in primary, I remember wanting it for myself. I'm kinda young to be thinking about getting married....but I also remember being too young to be worrying about driving. Those years came very quickly. Anyway, this school year is coming to a close.
Half of me is dying to get out of high school. I want to live on my own. I want to start working on my missionary papers. I want to serve a mission.
The other half is a little worried. As I look back at my last three years, I have done many great things...but I still make stupid mistakes. I still drop below my goals. I thought that by the time I graduated from high school I would have grown up so much. I feel like I have grown up a lot...but at the same time I still feel like the little boy who makes mistakes and disappoints his parents and peers. I had really awesome older brothers who were great examples to me. I wish I could be more like them sometimes. It always seems like they are at the top. Being the best of the best. I know that they aren't but I am always so impressed by them. It's a little hard following them. They are amazing men...and I'm ....less amazing I guess is the best way to put it.
I hope that I can get to a point in my life where I never have to disappoint anyone... I probably will never reach that point in my life. I don't think anyone eccentric does. But I hate disappointing people. If I were to pick my biggest fear, it would probably be disappointing people.
That's why I sometimes ask myself if I'm ready to graduate. I didn't realize how hard it is to leave home. It worries me a little....but I have a plan ahead of me. I know that my life is riding down the path it's supposed to. I just need to trust that He's up there with the plan and that he knows what he's doing. I might not always like where I'm going, but I know that things will work out the way they are supposed to.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
Look for the Light
I really like this one singer....his name is Benton Paul. He's not super popular, but I think he's great. He has a song called "Look for the Light". I once saw him perform this song at a concert that I went to with my brother. Here is a video of the concert. If you look on the far right at the very beginning of the video (about 2 seconds in), you can see my brother in a dark blue shirt and me in a white striped shirt.
This is one of my favorite songs by Benton....One of my favorites period. I don't listen to it often but I always seem to remember it when i'm having a hard time. I am very blessed. It's always easy to look for things about me or my life that I don't like. When I do that, I get super depressed or angry. I hate it. I like to think of myself as a pretty happy person. That's why I always do my best to "Look for the Light".
This video doesn't have the best quality....it's the wind....but I posted it because I like seeing my brother and I. I got to talk to him on mothers day. I miss him and am very excited for him to come home.
This video doesn't have the best quality....it's the wind....but I posted it because I like seeing my brother and I. I got to talk to him on mothers day. I miss him and am very excited for him to come home.
Monday, April 16, 2012
Prom
Get ready....this is a big post.
So, as of last week, I had never been to prom. So, to say I was so freaking excited was a pretty big understatement. I had been looking forward to it for months. Here's how it went down...
Spring Break
Last week was spring break. It was also the weekend of our day activity for prom. We had to have the activity the week before prom because of State One-Acts....It wasn't really a problem. In fact, I loved it that way. The plan was to drive down to Thanksgiving Point and spend the day there. Well, the plan had to change a bit. The day before our day activity, Maddy's phone had a bit of a breakdown. It was really bad and stressful. I went over to Maddy's that night and the night completely flipped around. I thought I was only going to be over there for a few minutes to be with Maddy. Then I got to spend the night with her family. I had so much fun with them. Her family was dying eggs that night and allowed me to stay with them. I hadn't dyed eggs in a really long time. After that, we watched 500 days of summer. It was a really good movie. The night was great.
Day Activity
So, the next day was the day activity. Maddy and I left an hour early so we could take her phone into the verizon store at the gateway. When we got there, the guy told us it would take about 30-45 minutes.....so we got to chill in the gateway. The sun was out and it was a beautiful day. It was really nice. Then when we went back for her phone, the guy had got her new software for her phone, got all her contacts back, and validated our parking. He was awesome. It was a great way to start the day....but it was only the start. Then we left for thanksgiving point. We got there a bit early so we were able to go down to the petting zoo. When the rest of the group showed up we went around the gardens and dino museum. It was a blast.
So, as of last week, I had never been to prom. So, to say I was so freaking excited was a pretty big understatement. I had been looking forward to it for months. Here's how it went down...
Spring Break
Last week was spring break. It was also the weekend of our day activity for prom. We had to have the activity the week before prom because of State One-Acts....It wasn't really a problem. In fact, I loved it that way. The plan was to drive down to Thanksgiving Point and spend the day there. Well, the plan had to change a bit. The day before our day activity, Maddy's phone had a bit of a breakdown. It was really bad and stressful. I went over to Maddy's that night and the night completely flipped around. I thought I was only going to be over there for a few minutes to be with Maddy. Then I got to spend the night with her family. I had so much fun with them. Her family was dying eggs that night and allowed me to stay with them. I hadn't dyed eggs in a really long time. After that, we watched 500 days of summer. It was a really good movie. The night was great.
Day Activity
So, the next day was the day activity. Maddy and I left an hour early so we could take her phone into the verizon store at the gateway. When we got there, the guy told us it would take about 30-45 minutes.....so we got to chill in the gateway. The sun was out and it was a beautiful day. It was really nice. Then when we went back for her phone, the guy had got her new software for her phone, got all her contacts back, and validated our parking. He was awesome. It was a great way to start the day....but it was only the start. Then we left for thanksgiving point. We got there a bit early so we were able to go down to the petting zoo. When the rest of the group showed up we went around the gardens and dino museum. It was a blast.
The rest of the group left around six...but Maddy and I decided to go to city creek. On the way there, we stopped at Ikea and played around for a bit. Then it was off to city creek. I thought the new mall was really cool. It was a bit crowded but a lot of fun.
To make a long story short, the activity was a blast.
PROM.
So, other things the next week went by really slowly. It was killing me. I just really wanted to go to prom. I couldn't even talk about it because I would start shaking from excitement. Finally, saturday came. It was incredible. We went to the garden for dinner, and then off to Prom. The whole time I was there, I felt like it wasn't real. I was having too much fun. It was the best night. Slow dancing in the capitol with my best friend. It doesn't get better than that.
I didn't expect the night to go so well.....and I was expecting a lot. It was a perfect night with the perfect date.
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Smile season
So last night was a blast. I sang loud, ate food, smiled almost the entire time, and went to sleep with the best feeling in the world. It was kinda weird....cause not a ton happened last night. I got to be with my best friend all night but we didn't do a ton of crazy stuff.....actually, I take that back. We did a lot of crazy stuff. Just not stuff that is super rare....it's hard to explain but I think you understand.
The sun has been shining all week. It makes me so happy. Last night, was warm and beautiful.
Maddy took me to a park that I'd never been to. It was a gorgeous place. It had a little lake and the sunset reflected beautifully on it. We skipped rocks and laughed together. Then we walked around the lake. When we were on the east side of the lake, we stopped and looked over at the sunset. It was beautiful. It was warm. It was peaceful. It was one of the moments where nothing else mattered. It was just a happy moment.
Moments like that always remind me how blessed I am. I really enjoyed spending time with my best friend last night.
Spring is here. I'm so excited.
The sun has been shining all week. It makes me so happy. Last night, was warm and beautiful.
Maddy took me to a park that I'd never been to. It was a gorgeous place. It had a little lake and the sunset reflected beautifully on it. We skipped rocks and laughed together. Then we walked around the lake. When we were on the east side of the lake, we stopped and looked over at the sunset. It was beautiful. It was warm. It was peaceful. It was one of the moments where nothing else mattered. It was just a happy moment.
Moments like that always remind me how blessed I am. I really enjoyed spending time with my best friend last night.
Spring is here. I'm so excited.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Cello
So, i'm getting lazy. I'm sorry. It's been a while....
Today, Maddy and I tried out for the talent show. We sang "I see the Light" from Tangled. It was so fun learning the song. We worked really hard and i'm very proud of what we accomplished. Maybe we'll be in the show... If not, it's ok. I feel very good about the audition and I had lots of fun.
Also today, I have been doing some really hardcore studying for my art history test tommorow.....haha, yeah. We'll see how that goes. Anyway, while I was studying, I had my headphones in and I was listening to some pretty mellow music. One of my absolute favorite pieces came up....
It's from one my top ten favorite movies....actually, more like top three. It's a very well done movie. It's called "Departures". It's a Japanese film so not very well known in the U.S.A. It's man who plays the cello in a symphony. He is a very young man who's mother has passed away and his father abandoned him. He is married to his wife and that's basically his entire family. At the beginning of the movie, the owner of the symphony comes after one of the shows and announces that the orchestra has gone bankrupt. All the musicians lost their jobs.
So, the main character has to find a new job. He starts a new job preparing bodies for funerals. In Japan, it is considered a very dishonorable job.
That's all i'm going to say though. I would highly recomend it.
The song that came on my ipod is from this scene....
I should probably explain the scene with the rocks. The boy and his father are finding rocks that feel the way they feel. The reason the father's face is blurred is because the man does not remember what he looks like.
Anyway, go see the movie. It's a good one. Makes me wish I played the cello.
Today, Maddy and I tried out for the talent show. We sang "I see the Light" from Tangled. It was so fun learning the song. We worked really hard and i'm very proud of what we accomplished. Maybe we'll be in the show... If not, it's ok. I feel very good about the audition and I had lots of fun.
Also today, I have been doing some really hardcore studying for my art history test tommorow.....haha, yeah. We'll see how that goes. Anyway, while I was studying, I had my headphones in and I was listening to some pretty mellow music. One of my absolute favorite pieces came up....
It's from one my top ten favorite movies....actually, more like top three. It's a very well done movie. It's called "Departures". It's a Japanese film so not very well known in the U.S.A. It's man who plays the cello in a symphony. He is a very young man who's mother has passed away and his father abandoned him. He is married to his wife and that's basically his entire family. At the beginning of the movie, the owner of the symphony comes after one of the shows and announces that the orchestra has gone bankrupt. All the musicians lost their jobs.
So, the main character has to find a new job. He starts a new job preparing bodies for funerals. In Japan, it is considered a very dishonorable job.
That's all i'm going to say though. I would highly recomend it.
The song that came on my ipod is from this scene....
I should probably explain the scene with the rocks. The boy and his father are finding rocks that feel the way they feel. The reason the father's face is blurred is because the man does not remember what he looks like.
Anyway, go see the movie. It's a good one. Makes me wish I played the cello.
Tuesday, February 21, 2012
Birthday Weekend
It's amazing how people can change the way your week goes....even when things are rotten. This weekend was absolutely fantastic. Here is a little summary of what went down:
Thursday
Thursday was the last day of school for the week. We got Friday off so we had a nice four day weekend. Thursday I did what I thought would never get done.....I finished my freaking Eagle! I was so happy. It should have been done forever ago but...I got it done. That night, we all went off to Megen Smed's house to celebrate her birthday. I had a lot of fun laughing with Maddy, eating crepes and playing jungle speed. Unfortunately, something sparked my asthma that night (I know. I really should grow out of it soon but my asthma is fighting me hard right now). Also, Maddy wasn't feeling so well so we both went home.
Friday
Day off. Awesome. I got to celebrate my birthday with Maddy all day. It was amazing. We made a cake, played some funny boardgames with her family and then went to Mikado.
So, maybe Maddy and I are really bad bowlers. It's probably fine. We got to take pictures in the photo booth and then we went back to her house and watched step up 3. It was a perfect day. I was so happy.
Saturday
I turned eighteen. I spent time with my family and then with Maddy and then with both. We had hot chocolate at my house and talked to my dad. It was a lot of fun. Then, later that night, productions went to Tim's house. It was fun to sit and chat with friends....but there was a problem. When we came down, I saw Tim pick up some sort of animal off the couch and take it upstairs. I didn't think much of it till I started feeling it in my lungs. It had to be a cat. My Asthma got worked up again.
Sunday
I still had my weezing lungs and itching face but I needed to go to church. I was sustained as the assistant to the bishop in the Priest Quorum presidency. I was really suprised. It's going to be a tough calling. Also, that night, I got working on a little project....
Monday
We also had monday off because of Presidents day. I got to spend time with Maddy, Chill with my brothers, and take a nice break. It was a great day. I also gave my "little project" to Maddy.
So Yeah. Asthma sucks. I hate it. Luckily, I have some awesome people in my life to make the worst situations some of my best.
Thursday
Thursday was the last day of school for the week. We got Friday off so we had a nice four day weekend. Thursday I did what I thought would never get done.....I finished my freaking Eagle! I was so happy. It should have been done forever ago but...I got it done. That night, we all went off to Megen Smed's house to celebrate her birthday. I had a lot of fun laughing with Maddy, eating crepes and playing jungle speed. Unfortunately, something sparked my asthma that night (I know. I really should grow out of it soon but my asthma is fighting me hard right now). Also, Maddy wasn't feeling so well so we both went home.
Friday
So, at Mikado, Maddy got a texted from Dallin. The BYU admissions had been posted. We could't wait so we had people check our admissions. Maddy got into BYU and will be going there next fall. I did not. I was pretty upset...for a little bit. After a few minutes, I calmed down. I wasn't going to let this little rock ruin my future or my date. Everything happens for a reason. We went back to Maddy's house to make sure that our admissions were right. It was tough. Haha, I feel so bad cause Maddy could totally tell how much it was hurting me. Being the sweetheart she is, she went downstairs and brought up my birthday present. She got me some gum a recess peanut butter cup and a movie. She also wrote me a poem. Being the emotional trainwreck that I already was, I sat there and sobbed. It was perfect. It was just what I needed. So Maddy and I went Bowling.....yeah. It was awesome!
Saturday
I turned eighteen. I spent time with my family and then with Maddy and then with both. We had hot chocolate at my house and talked to my dad. It was a lot of fun. Then, later that night, productions went to Tim's house. It was fun to sit and chat with friends....but there was a problem. When we came down, I saw Tim pick up some sort of animal off the couch and take it upstairs. I didn't think much of it till I started feeling it in my lungs. It had to be a cat. My Asthma got worked up again.
Sunday
I still had my weezing lungs and itching face but I needed to go to church. I was sustained as the assistant to the bishop in the Priest Quorum presidency. I was really suprised. It's going to be a tough calling. Also, that night, I got working on a little project....
Monday
We also had monday off because of Presidents day. I got to spend time with Maddy, Chill with my brothers, and take a nice break. It was a great day. I also gave my "little project" to Maddy.
So Yeah. Asthma sucks. I hate it. Luckily, I have some awesome people in my life to make the worst situations some of my best.
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